Naivety’s finest

 Am I the woman that said I never would be? 


Naive, neglecting my own needs and limiting myself out of fear. Putting everybody else first before myself.


I don’t know. 


I tell myself I’m living out love yet I continually endure in painful circumstances of betrayal, even though I remain loyal. 


It’s scary that I could be any one I want to be. I guess I’m just figuring out who. 

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